No space around me
Stifling walls
Closing off my view
Numbing thoughts
Aching soul
Suffocating dreams
Memory stirs
Pain wells up
Trapping me again
Nowhere to go
But inside myself
Devoid of any aim
Too scared to move
Barriers raised
Hearts freedom restrained
Tentative
Withdrawing hand
Fear of hurt again
Thick breath and clouds
Within my head
Oppressive atmosphere
Numbing thoughts
Aching soul
Suffocating dream
Before the dawn the night is but darkened,
testing those whom to YHWH have hearkened.
But he will be as light of the morrow,
when the sun rises, a day without sorrow.
In his day the righteous will flourish;
all who did hunger, our Father will nourish.
A kingdom of peace for those which remain;
all who are waiting in a robe without stain.
Sweet sunshine sings the dawn of day.
I rise up to watch and pray.
Scales drop from mine eyes as dew.
As fresh ferns, I renew.
Each moment is a gift from thee.
With humble heart I cry my plea.
Lamentations 3
Why can’t I count my blessings?
They must be there; I’ll wait and see.
These times are hard, the trials are tough.
I’ll keep waiting patiently.
To behold the beauty of the Lord,
And to meditate in his holy place?
Or excel in the glamor of this world,
And put on the makeup of a holy face?
What do I seek?
And what do you see?
Am I gentle, patient, and meek?
Or only selfishly focused on me?
1YHWH is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? YHWH is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?
2When the wicked, even mine enemies and my foes, came upon me to eat up my flesh, they stumbled and fell.
3Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this will I be confident.
4One thing have I desired of YHWH, that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of YHWH all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of YHWH, and to enquire in his temple.
5For in the time of trouble he shall hide me in his pavilion: in the secret of his tabernacle shall he hide me; he shall set me up upon a rock.
6And now shall mine head be lifted up above mine enemies round about me: therefore will I offer in his tabernacle sacrifices of joy; I will sing, yea, I will sing praises unto YHWH.
7Hear, O YHWH, when I cry with my voice: have mercy also upon me, and answer me.
8When thou saidst, Seek ye my face; my heart said unto thee, Thy face, YHWH, will I seek.
9Hide not thy face far from me; put not thy servant away in anger: thou hast been my help; leave me not, neither forsake me, O God of my salvation.
10When my father and my mother forsake me, then YHWH will take me up.
11Teach me thy way, O YHWH, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies.
12Deliver me not over unto the will of mine enemies: for false witnesses are risen up against me, and such as breathe out cruelty.
13I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of YHWH in the land of the living.
14Wait on YHWH: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on YHWH.
